#MotownMom: I’m More Than My Miscarriages via #blackruby | #mentalhealth #momboss

Women aren’t broken if they can’t have children.

I felt as if someone had raided my body and pummeled my heart until it bled and broke. It hurt to breathe. It hurt to think.

Hell, it hurt to live.

I couldn’t fathom what had just happened. Mere hours ago, there had been a living being inside of me. I’d heard her heartbeat. I’d seen her on the ultrasound. I’d even felt her kick as she shuffled within my womb. I’d fantasized about her beautiful bright eyes, her smile, her chortle, the way she’d feel in my arms when I first held her, and the incredible and sacred mission of raising her.

The notion of having a child after trying so hard was both nerve-wracking and exhilarating. Every time I traced my hands across my belly, an indescribable wave of compassion, delight, and longing flooded through my body, warming me with the certainty that I’d do everything in my power to ensure a good life for her.

And now? Now there was emptiness. Abysmal loss. Anger. Maddening sadness. Despair.

read more : https://medium.com/blackruby/123-1716018cf2a9

About @SylviaHubbard1

AUTHOR, MOTHER, SPEAKER, JOURNALIST, CONSULTANT & MORE! Divorced Mother of three, Detroiter, Sylvia Hubbard, is not only an award winning best selling author of over 28 books, but also founder of one of Michigan's largest interactive literary community, The Motown Writers Network/The Michigan Literary Network.

Posted on October 23, 2019, in Information, Motivational, Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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