A Sacrifice of an Unselfish Parent
I can’t do it. No matter how hard I’ve tried to convince myself that I can it’s useless. There will be another Social Media Made Easy for Authors workshop at some time in 2012. But this is the only year that my son will be in the second grade, eagerly anticipating participating in his schools Black History program.
When I first discovered this scheduling conflict my instinctive decision was to scratch off what I wanted to do on this particular day. It was a no brainer. The kids come first. Then yesterday, listening to the Michigan Literary Network blogtalk radio show, I heard Sylvia Hubbard say that all authors needed to be at this workshop. Immediately the fire was ignited to attend this workshop over going to my son’s school program.
“If you want to advance your career, you can’t miss this workshop,” I told myself, as a stronger voice was saying, “You can’t NOT let that boy be in the program. Bad mom move.”
Second guessing myself every step of the way, I ignored the latter until my son called from school this morning. He must have told his teacher that he couldn’t be in the program because I had a meeting. He was calling to tell me that his teacher said she could watch him until my meeting was over. Ouch!
See how much he wanted to be in the program! I knew then that he would be there and I’d be in the front row.
Times like these I wish I was one of those moms with nothing going on in my life but my children. Instead, I’m a mom who decided to publish a book and simultaneously chase my dream of becoming a successful author while raising my children. As that’s not the case I guess I’ll keep having to make these kinds of choices. Knowing me, the kids will always win. But I’m okay with that. Ironically, when they’re happy, I’m happy. Win-win, right?
LaCharmine (L.A.) Jefferson
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